I haven’t posted lately due to a rather nasty case of melancholy. It’s my bipolar illness acting up again after lying dormant for more than a year. My pdoc claims it’s “that time of year for bipolars” but there are other loathsome, personal factors involved that I’m too ashamed to admit.
If you’re unfamiliar with bipolar [...]
I stopped today at the Wawa a mile or so from my place to pick up some Rockstars for myself and Sweethearts candy–a surprise!–for my two daughters. I paid with a credit card, and held out out my driver’s license for the cashier.
This guy not only didn’t ask to see my license, he didn’t even [...]
and the disarming nihilism put down on the page by this Great Man is simply overpowering. It floors me. Takes me back 25 years to a cynical kid having unbearable, racing thoughts of what dying really meant, not to exist anymore except in the memories of people who knew you, loved you, who identified your [...]
I’ve sort-of been slumming around a bit, feeling a bit displaced now that I’ve moved out of my boyhood town for the second time, most likely for good.
I feel like I was splashing in a pond for 4 years and now I’m swimming desperately in the vast ocean. Nearly everything is available 24 hours-a-day here. [...]
I read a story about a guy named Gardner who stayed awake for 11 straight days and came out of it pretty well, although this descriptive passage tells of some funkiness along the way:
“As more days passed, Gardner’s speech began to slur, he had trouble focusing his eyes, he frequently grew dizzy, he had trouble [...]
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Q U O T E O F T H E D A Y
“Go on failing. Go on.
Only next time, try to fail
better.”
— Samuel Beckett
Id be an extremely short-sighted pessimist if I believed I was always destined to fail. I’ve learned from my stumblings. I’ve been shaped by my failures; they have become who I am.
A few [...]
God went out of me
as if the sea dried up like sandpaper,
as if the sun became a latrine.
God went out of my fingers.
My body became a side of mutton
and despair roamed the slaughterhouse.
I did not hear the bird sounds.
They had left.
I did not see the speechless clouds.
I saw only the little white dish of my [...]
Q U O T E O F T H E D A Y
When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.
— Mark Twain
I’m finally out of the hospital and back into the arms of my two favorite girls in the whole world! They are the reason I am here today, two beautiful and wonderful reasons. We finally got to hang out and had a great tiime.
Since I was away for Emma’s birthday on the 3rd, she still [...]
